Even though I love Jesus and believe that everyone who does will come to him, death is still something that freaks me out. Not my own death, though. My worst fear is losing somebody that I love. Not being able to see the person around anymore, knowing that I can’t have a physical dialogue with him or her ever again – those things freaks me out.
Sometimes it doesn’t even have to be a person either. You see, I had a cat when I grew up. She was my best friend in the whole world. I truly loved that cat! But one day she started to get real bad and wasn’t able to eat anymore, and we had to let her go. For those of you who have had pets on your own, you know how close you can get to them. I was 14 years old and totally devastated.
Today, we had to say goodbye to her sister as well. No matter if she was old (16 years), I still think it’s difficult. Finding her hairs all over the house… I don’t know, it’s just strange. It makes me understand how fragile a life is, and how soon it might be over.
But that’s how it is, The circle of life. Nothing we can do anything about. It will happen eventually, and we can’t stop that. Maybe that’s for the best, even. Because what if we could prevent death and nobody would die? I think you see where I’m going with this.
We’re born, we live and we die. And if you’re alive to read this post, thank God for that. I really think it’s something to be grateful for, especially considering how sore life is.
Sometimes I’m thinking: “If I’d die tomorrow, would I be happy with my achievements in this world?” Not to be depressed or anything, but to make sure that I’m aware of who I am and that the people around me know that as well, so that if I’d die I could die without any regrets.
Letting the people I love know that I love them is one thing that I never could die without. Although I’m awfully bad in telling them right away, I try to show them what they mean to me. As long as they know it, that’s what counts. ♥︎
I’m sorry if I managed to freak you out too, it was not my intention. I just want you to be aware of how lucky you are, being alive, and that you should live while you are!